18. I don't know what I want to do in the future.

I’ve always hated the question ‘What do you want to be when you grow up?’. When I was a child of course I gave a simple answer. ‘Singer, just like Hannah Montana.’ Times have changed since then. I do not know what I want to do. Who I want to be. All I know is I want to feel proud of who I am. I want to be happy in my life, doing activities that fill me with great joy and surround myself with people who make my resting bitch face crack into laughter.

Not knowing your future might be scary but it’s okay. Feeling lost with no compass (who knows how to use that thing anyway?) or a map can be overwhelming. But it is normal and human. If you worry too much about the future, you might stop living in the present. You will lose yourself and that is worse than not knowing where your path is going. The next thing I want to say is that you and only you are creating your own path. It might collide with someone else’s, but it will always be yours and it’s only your decision where you want to lead it. And don’t worry, you’ll figure that out eventually. For now, enjoy the present days and make a good memory out of them for the future.

This one is still bothering me from time to time but being 18 and not knowing what you want in life is quite alright. I am doing what I love now, and the future is the upcoming film which I haven’t seen the trailer for yet.

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And this is the last one out of the things I learnt throughout 18 years I’ve been here. We brought it to the end and I couldn’t be prouder, thank you. Doesn’t matter if you’ve read one, two or ten of these posts. I’m grateful, thank you for taking your time to read this.