Constellations

Stars.

What a beautiful view to not only see but also feel. People in love around me. People in love dealing with issues. Complicated, complex, difficult to put your head around.

Sacrifice and understanding. Not always the greatest joy. Yet so goddamn beautiful it is. Love, I mean. How precious it is. How grateful these people should be.

Stars above my head telling me I have no one to watch them with, to learn and find the constellations. No idea at all. What stars carry what names. No idea at all. whether this feeling is just temporary. Is it? Is it not permanent and destined to last for ages? Feel desperate. For a whole lot of stupid reasons. Unnecessary. So why would I trouble my mind so much? Why would I start this torture in my own head? The lying thoughts keep coming and degrade my soul. Liars. Goddamn liars. Why would they do it though?

Wrapped up in a cozy blanket. In this discomforting state of mind. People in love around me. My gaze goes up. I am observing the stars. For now. They are nameless objects to me.

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